Numb, dumb and stupid. Those are what I’m feeling right now. It’s not that I’m avoiding her, or being ignorant, or torturing her with lack of emotions. I’m really not good at balancing my time, organizing, prioritizing…all those stuff. I just saw everything, read everything, felt everything. It’s all sinking. I’m such an ass…Sorry. Full of regret and shame and bullshit right now. Bumabalik na naman ba sa dati? Please, please, please. Wag naman sana. Let’s cut that cycle of life of yours and make a new one with me in it. :(

Ang hirap maging estudyante na part-time caretaker ng bahay, na part-time tagabantay ng kapatid, na part-time under ng magulang, na part-time inggit sa mga tao sa mundo, na part-time Nothing. Ewan ko, but I think this is the part where I say “Di mo kasi alam”.. ;)